Read the article, in fact read it twice, had to digest it a bit. First off sorry about the space your in, sounds fucked up and painful. Way to hang it out there though it had to feel a little bit freeing saying it out loud so to speak instead of it just rolling around in your head night and day. Some themes struck a chord with me. For some basic context I'm coming off a tough three year period of disappointment, illness and loss that I'm trying to find my way back from. Sometimes I think it might be better to be more oblivious and just float through life never having to worry about living up to any principles or ideals we set for ourselves, just ignorant to the damage we do to others. Ignorance apparently is never having to feel sorry, never having to contemplate how our actions might possibly damage someone before choosing said action. I don't know, sounds pretty good, you never see those people with an anguished look or catching them glancing around for a tall building. But fuck that, ideals and principles like loyalty, honesty, integrity are NOT trite ideas or antiquated,thats something bottom feeders say to drag you down. Do you really think you could let go of those traits, would you really want to? There the bedrock, there what guide you when everything goes to shit and they will pull you out... in time. One way streets suck and sometimes you get run over by something you never saw coming and sometimes it's just as simple as we made a bad bet. It isn't about being self righteous, or even about being right, it's about feeling right and I don't think giving up your principles or ideals is the way to feel right, but it might seem like the easy way out right now. God knows I'm still trying to find my way clear. Ill tell you one thing I'm still heading for that light way out there at the end of the tunnel, with one pocket full of ideals the other filled with principles, ill meet you out there.
